lost

When I think of you
I can't help but smile
My bottled up feelings for you are true
Looks like I'll have to wait awhile

Was it love
Or was it just me
You were that angel from above
That God wants me to see

When I see you
I'd like to wish
You'll say "I love you too"
Followed by a kiss

You're in my dreams every night
You're the one who can take away my pain
I want to hug you really tight
Until chills run through all my veins

You're the key to my heart
Sucks you dont feel the same
Its ok if you didn't from the start
Theres no one but me to blame

Many years from now
Someone else will hold your hand
The feeling I'll never know how
But forget you I don't think I can

hurricane

like a mindless hurricane in a big busy city, she came and blew everything apart, turning his life upside down, inside out, and before you know it, she was gone..leaving himself and only himself to clear up the pieces. the path she created deeply etched into his memory..it would take years before the permanent scar would even start to fade. have you experienced the lost of a loved one? he hasn't..till today..now he finally understands pain to its fullest capacity. its like ripping off your arms..your legs..and then your heart..but imagine a hundred times more painful. no amount of alcohol can numb the eternal pain..for the first time in his life he feels so helpless..so alone..so confused..he has no one to turn to..could have swore she meant it when she said she wanted to spend forever with him..now, the person he gave his soul to has just ran away..leaving behind an empty shell with no life, no emotions..no will to carry on. why does God give humans dreams when they dont come true..death seems to be the best way out now coz the pain now is worse than dying. but he's too weak to try it again. he used to always visualise their lives together, holding hands..kissing in the sunset..but now all he can see is emptiness..all he can think of is what if they had made it..but not anymore..now, there's no one to hold his hand when he is down..no one to tell silly jokes..no hugs and loving kisses..no one to hit him lovingly..and she is gone..forever..reality suddenly hits him and he feels helpless..so helpless..he doesnt know what to do..so defenceless against the pain..the fact that he cant cry very much doesnt help..but he's bleeding inside..he lets out a deep sad moan signalling his surrender to this cruel life..more alcohol..quick..get drunk..fall asleep..escape from the pain..for now..